How to find information...

Looks like no sleep again tonight.  One and a half hours of sleep for three days is wearing me down a little.

I work in the oil industry.  There are many situations that arise at a plant, where the person responsible needs to be held accountable.  Usually, these "fault finding" investigations are done by hearsay and talking with people one on one.  Even if a manager confronts the person he or she believes is at fault, they can come up with some type of excuse as to way it wasn't their fault.

I give that very brief background to talk about another manager I had.  This guy had it figured out.  Everything done at a refinery is pretty much automatically logged in a computer.  You can see when people make adjustments by looking at graphs and charts that automatically capture information.  This manager would print out the charts, graphs and "trends."  Then he would get EVERYONE that could possible be involved with the incident in the same room.  And then all hell would break loose.  You should see the finger pointing that goes on!  But the one thing that cannot be avoided is the truth.  First, you have facts in black and white that cannot lie.  Second, the people in the room that had nothing to do with the incident will help figure out what happened.

This manager's way of going about these situations was a bit unorthodox.  He could really piss some people off when he did this.  But you know what? It got the job done.

This brings me to where my thoughts are right now.  The bad thing is, I don't even know how to type my thoughts right now.  I really wish I could.  It's like a whirlwind of things running through my head, and I can't grab them to put them together.  I could type out exactly what the situation is, but that really wouldn't help.  I can somewhat understand why this person (or these people) is (are) doing what they are doing.  But I would think there is a certain way to go about it, and the way they are going about it can cause unrepairable damages.  However when some people get to an extremely low point in their life, they don't care about the destruction they leave behind.

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I almost had some sort of closure about what happened.  I had a scenario that made the most sense to me, and one that I could almost understand.  Then you hear rumors....LOTS of rumors.  I've never really understood rumors.  I don't know where I'm going with this now.

3:20am is going to come early.  That's what time I set my alarm for to get up for work.  After I got off work today, I hit the gym pretty hard to try to wear myself down so I would sleep easily tonight.  I even stopped off at the restaurant across the street from my house to have a single beer to maybe put me out.  I know they have "better" sleep aides, but I've always been against chemically produced pills.  Melatonin is probably ok, but I've never taken it either and don't want to oversleep for work.

It's still crazy to me that you can really see yourself making progress, then over a few days you are taken back by leaps and bounds.