I swear, I'm completely crazy for this girl! There is no compromising with her. Everything she likes, I like. Everything she stands for, I stand for. All of her beliefs, are my beliefs. I guess the stars have finally aligned for me! Life could not be going any better for me right now. My love life is perfect, the money is starting to get straight and my health could not be better! I have to cut this post short today, I have a few friends coming over in a few.
I can only hope the ex is finding the same things that I have to make her happy. I really wish her the best.
Monday, February 14, 2011
Monday, February 7, 2011
work... :o( and the g/f... :o)
I think I'm really getting my life together, except for one part...work! I'm starting to dislike my job even more. It's hard because the career I took pays extremely well and really doesn't require a degree. If I can stay there 24 more years (retirement age), I will leave there a millionaire easily. As I said in past posts, the place is run like a prison or military. Today, they almost forced us to stay past our 12 hours for no good reason. After 12 hours on being jacked around by 4 bosses, I'm ready to go home. This is the only thing that really puts me in a bad mood, and seems to keep me in a pissy mood for at least 8 of the 12 hours I'm there. It used to not be this way, but it seems to keep getting worse.
Anyway, on a positive note, I'm really starting to fall in love with my girlfriend. I still haven't said the "L" word to her yet, just trying to see if she can make an effort in one area. It's not that big of a deal and I'm sure she'll do better in that area. She is totally amazing! I cannot believe how much of a "go-getter" she is. She really inspires me and tries to make me be better in everything I do.
Anyway, on a positive note, I'm really starting to fall in love with my girlfriend. I still haven't said the "L" word to her yet, just trying to see if she can make an effort in one area. It's not that big of a deal and I'm sure she'll do better in that area. She is totally amazing! I cannot believe how much of a "go-getter" she is. She really inspires me and tries to make me be better in everything I do.
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Still a little way to go!
I worked last night. The temperature dropped down to 25 and the windchill was at 13. Two of the people that I work directly for do not have the same personality as me and it causes me to get pissed. One of them is just not as good as the last person I worked for. The last person, would try to minimize your "running around" time and could make your job much easier. The new one freaks out on problems and causes you to chase a bunch of shit that doesn't need chasing.
The other person is hard to explain. It's almost like he has the "I'm the boss now" mentality, but I know he doesn't. He likes to micro manage and goes way overboard on some of his actions. He thinks because he is doing something, you need to be right there by his side. He doesn't understand that I still have many other tasks to take care of.
Working for this company is like being in prison (I could only imagine). Even your nightly tasks are not called "tasks for the night" or "nightly work list" but instead called "orders." This place still runs on a 1950's mentality.
I do let it get to me, and that's why I say I still have a little way to go. It's hard! I still have not found a way to not let my job bother me. How do the other people not let it bother them so much? Are they just faking their "contentness?" I always say I'm not going to let it get to me, but something always seems to happen to cause me to get flat pissed off. I found out earlier today that the sections that I work in are having major problems right now, so when I go in tonight, it is going to be horrible. But at least this will be another opportunity to try and learn how to handle my emotions better.
Anyway, this was a pretty boring post, but I had to let me thoughts out. My girlfriend also worked last night and she came over shortly after getting off. I woke up before her and couldn't stop staring at her sleeping. She is so beautiful! I have to say she is helping me become a better person and she doesn't even know it!
The other person is hard to explain. It's almost like he has the "I'm the boss now" mentality, but I know he doesn't. He likes to micro manage and goes way overboard on some of his actions. He thinks because he is doing something, you need to be right there by his side. He doesn't understand that I still have many other tasks to take care of.
Working for this company is like being in prison (I could only imagine). Even your nightly tasks are not called "tasks for the night" or "nightly work list" but instead called "orders." This place still runs on a 1950's mentality.
I do let it get to me, and that's why I say I still have a little way to go. It's hard! I still have not found a way to not let my job bother me. How do the other people not let it bother them so much? Are they just faking their "contentness?" I always say I'm not going to let it get to me, but something always seems to happen to cause me to get flat pissed off. I found out earlier today that the sections that I work in are having major problems right now, so when I go in tonight, it is going to be horrible. But at least this will be another opportunity to try and learn how to handle my emotions better.
Anyway, this was a pretty boring post, but I had to let me thoughts out. My girlfriend also worked last night and she came over shortly after getting off. I woke up before her and couldn't stop staring at her sleeping. She is so beautiful! I have to say she is helping me become a better person and she doesn't even know it!
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
The ex...
Totally forgot about this, and I want to type it out, because I know I'll forget about it in a few days. My ex didn't rape me on the typical 50/50 divorce split. Instead, we worked out a dollar amount I have to pay her. She was in town yesterday and I told her just to swing by and pick up her "payment" and she could sign for it. When I saw her, there were absolutely no feels of "love" or the past. It was more like seeing an old acquaintance. I asked her how she was doing and she said she was pretty DAMN happy. I still find it odd she chose to use the words "damn happy." I'm not going to dwell too much on that.
I think one reason that I don't have any feelings for her anymore is due to how at peace I am with myself. During our marriage, I always told her it must be nice to be "insert full name here." I said this because she really did not contribute anything of value to our relationship. I paid every major bill we had. She mainly made money (I use this term loosely) to pay bills that she caused. Now, I can say it's nice to be Shaun Roberts. I'm dating a girl who shares about every belief that I have about how a relationship should work. There HAS to be give and take. If you get treated like a king, then you should treat her like a queen in return. Everyone has their bad days that they aren't going to treat you like you want, but if you still keep treating them good, it'll roll right back to you very quick.
Someone also told me she changed her relationship status on facebook (the way everyone seems to announce anything anymore) to "in a relationship." It doesn't bother me a bit! I really hope she finds what she is looking for. There is someone for everyone, but we were just not for each other.
I really didn't want to do two blog postings today, but like I said, this encounter was didn't mean a thing to me and I know I'll forget about it.
I think one reason that I don't have any feelings for her anymore is due to how at peace I am with myself. During our marriage, I always told her it must be nice to be "insert full name here." I said this because she really did not contribute anything of value to our relationship. I paid every major bill we had. She mainly made money (I use this term loosely) to pay bills that she caused. Now, I can say it's nice to be Shaun Roberts. I'm dating a girl who shares about every belief that I have about how a relationship should work. There HAS to be give and take. If you get treated like a king, then you should treat her like a queen in return. Everyone has their bad days that they aren't going to treat you like you want, but if you still keep treating them good, it'll roll right back to you very quick.
Someone also told me she changed her relationship status on facebook (the way everyone seems to announce anything anymore) to "in a relationship." It doesn't bother me a bit! I really hope she finds what she is looking for. There is someone for everyone, but we were just not for each other.
I really didn't want to do two blog postings today, but like I said, this encounter was didn't mean a thing to me and I know I'll forget about it.
TM on 1/29/11
I have a very bad memory. In 15 years, I will have totally forgotten about the Tough Mudder '11. Here are a few photos and descriptions to help jog my memory in the future years. The first photo is one of the first of 19 obstacles you had to tackle in this 10 mile challenge. It was about a 15'x15'x4' deep hole full of ice water. The outside temp that morning was in the 50's and during the previous nights, it had been dipping down in the upper 30's. Even without the 18 wheeler truck load of ice dumped into this obstacle, the water alone would have been plenty cold.
This was the tight rope obstacle. I gave several people many laughs on this one. The girl in the picture was taking it an inch at a time. I got up to her and she said to go around her if I could... well.... I did, but it wasn't pretty! She probably could have had me arrested for assault if she wanted it! She was a really good sport, she was laughing the whole time.
This picture was taken about mile 8. I'm in the red to the left. At this point, I feel defeated and tired, but have to push forward. I'm glad I ran this with a team, they kept me motivated the entire challenge.
This is me jumping off the 15' high obstacle called "Walk the Plank." This was the second real obstacle that you came to along the course. When I hit the water, it's the first time I can say I felt like I was in shock. It was a mental challenge to make my limbs start moving when in the water. If that wasn't enough, when you hit the water, you still had to swim about 100' to get out of the water!
This was the tight rope obstacle. I gave several people many laughs on this one. The girl in the picture was taking it an inch at a time. I got up to her and she said to go around her if I could... well.... I did, but it wasn't pretty! She probably could have had me arrested for assault if she wanted it! She was a really good sport, she was laughing the whole time.
We finished! They say only about 75-78% of the people who start this challenge finish it. If you do finish, they give you a headband, t-shirt and a beer.
When I finished, I was really glad I did this challenge. It is the most I have ever pushed my body. I really, REALLY hate cold water and cold temperatures. I'm glad I faced something I hate, head on. I don't think I realized it at the time, but I think I was the "old guy" on the team. I am 31, but feel in better shape than I did when I was 21. I think Tom Petty said in a song, "You never slow down, you never grow old." While I don't care to be this cold again any time soon, I wouldn't mind trying it again in my 40's. I hope this blog is still around in 10 years to remind myself of that!
On a parting thought for today, I want to remind myself of the hard work and a few lifestyle changes I had to make to be able to complete a challenge such at the Tough Mudder. For the past 4-5 months, I have hit the gym at least 2 times a week, but more like 4 times a week. Here is a picture of how I have changed in the past several months...
