Being Happy.

The biggest thing I'm struggling  with right now is allowing myself to be happy.  I can have such a good time, then later feel bad about having it...almost like I don't deserve to be happy.  That's a strange feeling for me.  I know I'll get better with it, because time and deep breaths can help just about anything.  Somehow, I actually got two night off work this weekend!  I really had the best time I've had in a long time.  I'm not really looking forward to going back to work Monday night, but the turnaround is getting closer to being over, just about 3 more weeks!

Anyway, I only wanted to post a quick note to remind myself where I'm at right now.  Allergies are also getting the best of me tonight/today!

It's April!

Just about 3 more weeks or so until the turnaround is over!  I can't wait!  I really hate working overtime, but the money sure is nice.  I've been saving up so I can build a new home around September.  I hadn't done a post in awhile, so I thought I'd write something real quick before I fall asleep for the day.  Everything is going pretty well.  I started seeing someone.  She's a real special girl and accepts the situation I came from.  We're taking things real slow and that's nice.  I have an awesome time around her, but sometimes catch myself feeling guilty about having fun.  I guess that can be expected, but hope to overcome those feelings of guilt one day.  It's not fair to me, or whoever I'm seeing.

I'm used to running on about 3 or 4 hours of sleep a night, but still usually get two long naps in during the week.  With the turnaround going on, my sleep schedule has still not adjusted.  I think that may be while I'm feeling a little sick this morning.  Well, this was a pretty boring post, but I'm exhausted and sick...and need sleep!