Turning Point?

About two weeks ago, I started realizing I am truly happy again.  As I said that to myself a few weeks ago, I immediately started questioning it!  What all of the sudden, almost like a light switch, can make you realize you are happy?  Then I started thinking, "well, I guess it's a temporary happiness."  But as of today, two weeks after that initial feeling, I know it's here to stay.

After going through sometime like I went though, you always wonder what others think about how you are coping.  I always heard people deal with situations in different ways, and progress through hurt at different times.  I know I have cycled a great deal in dealing with my grief.  Some days I would be as happy as I ever had been, only to just have a whirlwind of emotions when I would try to sleep.

I still miss my friend more than anything, and there is never more than a few hours that go by that I don't think about her.

Last year, I started to streamline my life.  I switched to a different position at the real estate office, sold a few of my properties and started turning down more overtime at work.  It seems now, I've replaced the time I spent in those areas, with other things I thought would be fun, but just turn out to be a lot of work too.  I think it's time to really sit down again and do a "life check" to make sure I'm heading in the direction that I want to be.  I need to find the things that really make me happy, and find which things are just so-so and eliminate them.

Two things that I truly like are 1) Nature and 2) Accomplishments.  I love being outdoors and looking at scenery.  I remember the first time I flew into Colorado, left the airport in my rental car and immediately saw the mountains up the road!  Man that was beautiful!  It was almost like I was having an out of the body experience!!  The other thing I like doing is pushing myself for new accomplishments in things that I like!  I have friends that try to get me to go to Crossfit because of the competitive nature.  That sounds ok, but I don't like competing in the things they do.  I don't know, hard to explain this one...I need to work on this one in my mind too.

That's enough for today...it has been awhile since I last posted.  Tonight will be my 5th straight night to work, and my last one...ready to get it over with!  I'm heading to the Hike & Bike trail in Beaumont right now to get a little run in.