I'm really not sure where to start. I have always thought about creating a blog to let my thoughts out. Personally, when I have a thought, it is just that. I think about something, and quickly forget it. Perhaps writing what I'm thinking about will help my thoughts and help me grow as a person. This blog isn't for the plublic, but for me. I don't consider myself that great of a writter, so I'm hoping to improve my gramattical skills as well. Thoughts race though my head all the time. Sometimes multible thoughts come though at the same time and lock my mind up temporarily. Anyway, here I go...
Just a little background to refresh myself on where I have been. I was married for 5 years and with the same person for about 7 1/2 or so. That has ended recently. As far as the marriage was concerned, it should have ended a long time ago. That person was great to live with and hang out with, but it never felt like a marriage. When we first decided to get a divorce, I was in a little bit of shock. Everyone has their own way of dealing with situations like that. I'll go into more detail about that when I'm ready. After we decided to get divorced, my mind was constantly racing with thoughts. I found that running and working out were the only things that would allow my mind to quit thinking so much. I wasn't too "out of shape," but after 3 months of this new fitness regiment, I went from 197 pounds with a small gut to 180 pounds with a flat stomach starting to peek though. I feel great! That's enough for the background for today.
Today, I woke up around 9:30am. I worked last night and would have liked to slept longer, but I had a follow up doctors appointment. Speaking to the doctor was good news. I had been sick for about 2 1/2 weeks previously, and had been sick for about 1 1/2 weeks each of the two months before that. After checking the results from my blood work, it looked like I had a nasty virus. He said to also looks like I might have allergies and might want to start taking Clariton OTC during the winter months. He also said my blood work painted a picture of perfect health. That's good to hear considering I eat so bad. I've cut out a LOT of fast food, but still like frying nearly everything I eat.
After the doctors appointment, I went to the gym. I started like I always do, by running a mile, or doing some other type of cardio to get the blood moving. After that I tried a new routine that I read about last night. It's called a 10x10x10. Basically, you select an amount of weight that you routinely workout with, then cut that by 50%. Now, you do 10 sets of 10 reps in 10 minutes. That means you throw up your weight for 10 times in the first minute, rest until the second minute starts, then throw that up 10 times, rest until the 3rd minute, ect. WOW! That was a new feeling! The first exercise I did was the decline bnech press. I used 135lbs for my workout weight. It felt good for the first 5 sets, but found it difficult after that. I think I did 10 reps for the 6 sets, then had to back down to 6 or 8 reps for the remaining sets. I also did this routine for standing barbell curls, tricep push downs and butterflys. I finished up my workout today with 15 minutes in the sauna. I really love to lay down in the sauna and sweat it all out!
As I'm letting my thoughts out, I'm watching my new girlfriend sleep on the couch. She's a RN that deliveres babies. She works nights, so I can understand her sleeping, and she can understand why I sleep during the day when I work nights. She's really an amazing girl. After about 2 1/2 months of dating, there is almost nothing that I don't like about her! I say almost because everyone has their quirks. I haven't told her I love her yet, but I can see that coming soon! She's making me grow as a person and she doesn't even know that she is doing it. I love her personality!
Right now, I'm probably the happiest I've been in a long time. I'm working on seeing life differently. I've never really considered myself a "happy" person. I've seen happy people before and they've always looked strage to me. Maybe they are the ones that have it figured out??? I first attemped to be happy by just faking it. I have to say, it worked. As I was "faking" my being happy, I started noticing the way people responded to my smile, my energy and my willingness to help. It was a real positive feeling I experianced (by the way, I never know how to spell that word... experianced or experience). As I was faking my happiness, it eventually grew into real happiness. I no longer have to put on a fake smile anymore.. it's just there! Another thing that helps me is not trying to live up to others expectations or thoughts of me, but live my life for myself.
I guess that's enough for my first blog. My grilfriend and I are going to eat with my parents tonight to show them pictures from our Jamaica trip. I'm pretty excited about going to see them. I don't spend nearly enough time with my family...got to work on changing that.
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